My name is Lori Feehan Boudreaux and I am your biological daughter. My mother put me up for adoption through Catholic Charities in New Orleans, Louisiana after she gave birth to me at Hotel Dieu Hospital. I don't know alot about you except that you were from Central America , Hispanic , about 5'6 and I was told you were an "Agricultural Engineer".
God gave me a wonderful Mother, a Dad that I loved more than I could ever express and a family that I wouldn't trade for anything in the world not to mention the best Grandparents ever.
They alone were worth the trade. That being said my life wasn't always easy. Bad things happened to me and I made alot of bad choices. Those choices led me to God when I was 17 and held me to it until I was in my 30's. I have been happily married for 11 years. I have 3 children 2 girls , 1 boy. All of whom participated in saving my life in one way or another.
I am 41 now which would make you about 73. I hope you are alive and well. I pray you have been blessed with more children and grandchildren. I hope you married the love of your life and stayed happy and fulfilled. I guess my purpose for writing this letter to you is just to say what I would say if I ever got the chance to meet you face to face and outside of God answering my prayers this may be as close as I'll ever get.
What I mostly want to say is Thank You! Thank you for your selflessness and your sacrifice. I don't know where your heart was in this but if it was a difficult decision to come to let me assure you it was the right one. Without it I wouldn't be who I am today. Your decision as parents to give me up was the greatest kindness you could have ever shown me.
I pray always that both you and my mother don't live with regret or guilt, as there is nothing to be sorry for. If I could do it over again I wouldn't change a thing.
The dad God gave me was not infallible and certainly not perfect but He was mine and I cherished my relationship with him. He has passed on into a much better life and not a day goes by that I don't think about him. One thing I can assure you of is that he loved me. I didn't have to be anything but Lori for him to be proud of me. You would have liked him , he was fun.Though he is gone I am not without a father . I have never been without a father . God has never left me nor will He ever He has always taken care of his little girl and will continue to do so.
I would like to conclude by saying to you that I was never angry or bitter even when things were hard. I never questioned your intentions nor have I ever felt unwanted. If you have gone on to a better place than I pray you have met my father, both of them . If you are still here I pray God allows the remainder of your days to be happy, blessed and I wish you a very Happy Fathers Day!
Love, Lori Lynn
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